bad dreams...

I don't remember what I dreamed last night, just small bits and pieces and I woke up feeling stressed and unhappy. And I am not sure why my dreams were so disturbed, nothing that I watched on tv should have caused a problem and nothing has happened in the real world I am living in,
Work is going ok, I am glad I was able to go back to work after the accident, and some shifts get hard but I do like my job and most of the people there. My foot gets miserable some times, but I'm not often taking anything for pain so that's good.
Winter is long and hard this winter, we've had more snow than I have seen for years but I have managed to shovel what I needed to and Ben and Tamara helped with this last storm. But I'm not depressed with winter or the cold.
So I don't know why or what rattled my sleep and walked through my dreams--or I know who/what but I will sort it out and get my balance and composure back. My life here is good, there is balance and peace.
My finances are slowly getting better, it will take a long time but I am making progress and I am making progress with the house, not fast but a bit at a time. I'm not going to let the past and anyone from the past screw up my head, especially those that share my blood and genetics.
I did the best I knew how to be a good parent, I wasn't perfect but my kids are now all adults and living their own lives. I am not making any of their choices, nor am I responsible for their lives.
Like most parents, I want the best for my kids, and want them to be happy with their own lives, but I know they have to do the living of those lives, making the choices and dealing with the results of those choices.
Now, it's my life here, and my paychecks to make decisions with, and to support my self, and I do have a lot of stuff that I don't have to have, I buy things I want, I add to my doll collection and have techie toys that I don't need. It's a single and indulgent life in ways but it is my life.
And I am not going to let dreams or the past mess up my head nor am I going to let some sort of guilt trip crawl into my head either.