I did get a surprise Facebook message from someone I have had no contact with for almost 30 years. The past is long past, my life here in Illinois works well for me, because I work hard and make good choices and do what it takes to have a life I like.
And since I have been a mother for a lot of years, and those children that have a genetic link to him are grown and have been for a long time, it is rather late to tell me Happy Mother's Day. His life, and what he does, where he is, has no connection to me and my life and I plan to keep it that way.
Here, I have a house I have provided for myself, and stuff I have worked to pay for, ok credit, not great, but ok credit. Not much in the bank and plenty of bills and debts to pay on, but a good job to earn that money, and occasionally a bit for play.
My sewing space is a work in progress but I have a place to sew and good sewing machines, a good work table for cutting fabrics, a workable ironing board, not great but at least I can iron what needs ironed. I sure have a lot better life than what that man provided for me, and no raving temper fits, no pot smoking, no foul and abusive attitude.
He taught me to drive, and taught me some about bikes, and body work on vehicles, how to take apart, clean and reassemble a carb. But I have come a very long way from those days, from the girl I was when I first met him, from the woman I was when I gave him a second chance.
I am not someone he knows, or someone who has any place in his life, we walk very different roads and there is no place for him on the road I walk now. I am not mad or angry or even curious about the message.
Life here is not what I ever dreamed I would be living many years ago but it is working well for me, I am aging and ok with that. I am not well off, but I don't skip meals to pay the utility bill, and I don't have bill collectors hunting for me or the law looking for me.
The house dog is making progress on manors and behavior issues, and knows I love him. The people at work know I will show up on time and do my job, to the best of my ability and I have become a valuable member of Pleasant Plains Historical Society.
Ya, my little life here does just fine, and I do shut out anyone who will not add value, quality or would damage my little world.
