That wish list stuff

I don't do that commercial Christmas stuff, walked away from that 'crap' many years ago. I will eat the mid-winter feast meal, this year Cargill is doing our dinner on a Tuesday so I actually get to have my Christmas dinner. And the gift from the plant was a very nice sized ham and a really great sweatshirt fleece blanket in a very friendly gray that Kid and I will enjoy.
D.H. has backed off and now now longer tries to get me to do something after I get off work Sundays and I think he has finally accepted that I am not dating him, I am not going to Springfield or Jacksonville with him and that I don't want drug into any of the plant issues he's involved in, having or whatever.
It's cold, and I am not enjoying some of that, but I will survive. So far it's not been too bad in supply but some of my co-workers have set the area heater on 100, I turned it down, turned off the small electric heaters and was comfortable all shift. I was also busy and got things done that needed done.
I was spending some out of plant time with a maint. guy when I started that royal blue work sweater, now the replacement is done and I'm considering some time with that same guy again.
He does understand that I am still getting life back on solid ground, that I don't have much time or much 'me' to put into a relationship but he's ok with that. He also has done some things that hit me as making it obvious that he is interested in me...and we will both get some flack/teasing/comments about it. And he knew he would be 'opening the door' to talk and speculation on what's going on between us...plenty of audience to that coffee delivery and the comments he made. Including his supervisor. It's ok, I can handle the waves.
Jake's back at home base, talked to him last night, that was great, he sounds good, happy, talking about his leave, doesn't know when it will be yet. Loves me, had some of his hand knit socks stolen, some wore out.
The new work sweater had it's first trip through the washing machine and dryer. I did turn it wrong side out and I did remove it from the dryer before it was completely dry. I love the sweater, think I need several more that weight and do have the purple 1 started, planning to use a pattern by Alice Starmore for that 1 but we all know I will adjust it to fit me better or tweak it to suit me more.
Don't have much of a wish list, 1 month of everyone working in supply/warehouse being considerate, and doing their job and doing it right would be nice. Less pain in the right foot would really be appreciated as would more patience with myself.
Sister L is still hurting from her surgery, still having daily migrains, still looking for mr right, I am glad I don't have her life, am glad I am emotionally stronger, and manage my life different than she is doing her life. She may pass for many years younger than she actually is but I don't see it lasting if she continues drinking and being dis-satisfied with her life. I thought she and her husband had got it figured out, how to keep a marriage working, but after 24+ years of marriage, they are now divorced.
I will gladly keep my old house and damaged foot, it's a life I can work with and some things, some days are just gold, coffee delivered today, the patience some of the maint guys have when I have to move a lot of stuff with the fork truck before I can get to the racks and barrels of oil down.
The dog reeks when he passes gas, and he wants to cuddle, wants my attention when I am trying to read my e-mail, crowds me sleeping, takes up a lot of my bed, but he also loves me with few demands, just as I am, on my good days and on my bad ones too.
I do so love my life, love that feeling I get when I put on a sweater I knit, especially when it's 1 I designed too. 3 out of 5 of my hand knit sweaters are my own design/creation. Love wrapping up in the new blanket and watching tv with that dog. I do know I still have a lot of issues to work out, sort out, deal with.
I know I have a ways to go when I find myself crying over sad spots in Star Trek Voyager episodes. Or sad spots in movies. I don't cry over my life but I am far too easily moved to tears over fictional things. I am not going to try to 'get help' with any emotional issues or 'depression' as I know there is nothing in my life that would be 'fixed' by anti-depressants, I have a lot that needs dealt with, taken care of, and some is just time and you have to live through that 'time' stuff

Winter is here

And we have gotten real cold, at least for this area. I lived through much colder out west, but I was younger then and didn't have a metal plate and 5 screws in 1 leg. I am not whining but life here is not all cake and ice cream. I try to not moan or whine where many people can read it or where my venting can get waves going that I don't want to deal with.
Some of my co-workers suck when it comes to doing their work duties, I do not expect it to get a lot better with the new dept head and I doubt if having our very own warehouse supervisor on 2nd shift will make huge changes, nor will security cameras in the warehouse but the gate might be kept shut like it should be more often.
And looking back, I have to wonder just how stupid and desperate that guy from the past thought I was??? Ok, so I had some fun out west, at a time I really wanted an escape from being here, from dealing with the accident and I wanted something to believe in, someone who gave me a bit of 'happy ever after' even when I could see that he could not bring it about.
So, a year later, I walk with a real obvious limp some days, and hurt a lot, and live with that hurt. and I just don't want some man feeding me any lines/lies/crap again. I don't want to hear much about their problems, I won't fix things for anyone, and I don't want to share my house, my bed or my paycheck with anyone except the dog and birds, and the birds do not get to share that bed.
I also think Suzi has her doll outfits way overpriced and that green sweater she has up for sale has a serious cable screw up on it, it's not acceptable workmanship for the price she is asking. I know she is very talented and creative, but she's not designing much original stuff, purchased patterns for both the sewing and knitting and not a huge amount of tweaking with them...
but I am also not creating much, for sale or for myself...
Taking some time off knitting or slowing down some on it, wrists and lower arms are getting painful at times, and I know I have pushed hard with my sweater. It will get done, I will be wearing it soon but it's not a life and death thing..the world does not end if I don't get it done Now..but I would like to be wearing it to work Saturday or Sunday..and impress that guy in the boiler room I flirt with.
We have been involved before, and we might again do some of that adult stuff, and for now, we are comfortable with things as they are..it's too cold to play or run back and forth between where he lives and where I live and our different work schedules...
and I need to head for bed, get that spoilt dog out for a last potty break and then tuck in the warm and clean bed that is waiting for us...